A lover's letter to winter in search of closure
Katee Pederson
You began slow, mild weather in your hand
I started fast
A broken heart in mine
Though you promised nothing
But dark evenings and shorter days
I had big dreams of what we would become
I penned in adventures both near and far
Tracking our future progress
Long before the snow covered the ground
You were quick to whisper reminders
Of how you could never guarantee
Yet somehow I was confident the future was ours
As the snow began to stick my plans chose to slip
Agendas changed but I held faith
“It will work out in the end.”
It wasn’t long before our meetings became turbulent
Still I fought to hold tight
My mind doesn’t change once it’s made
All through the deep freeze I remained optimistic
Attracted to the challenge while friends recited warnings
More than turned off by your cold front
I waited - patiently, not exactly
But waited none the less
Certain in time you would provide for my needs
I rescheduled what I could, cancelled what I couldn’t
Begging you to warm up
To finally make space
Visions, they lingered
Written down to become true
Of days wrapped tight in your unforgiving arms
When others asked of my plans
I articulated with confidence
Dreams always feel real from the inside
Warmer weather was coming
I could feel it in my bones
It’s not like me to not get what I want
Suddenly, dear friend, you woke me with the truth
Snow turned to mud
Your reputation alongside it
Left with desires unfulfilled
Verses echoing in me ears
You don’t make promises, I remember
I wasted my chance, did things wrong from the beginning
It’s my words and your voice
That I’m awake with each night
Even at that, I know they’re not true
You’ll be back soon enough
You never say never
I’ve got a lifetime ahead, to figure us out
But with the way you left me
You should hope I don’t move on before you change your mind